Jonesing for Accutane.

Yes you read that right. I really and truly am.

I went on accutane for the first time in my life over a year ago. I have always had acne since being a teen. I had tried every prescription they had to offer accept for accutane and was told I could not have it because I was of childbearing age.

I did find a great product called Proactive and as long as I stuck to the regime of applying it twice a day (major drag) I was pretty clear. This lasted for about 4 years. When it suddenly stopped working I just ignored (or tried my best to) my horrid complexion. I just figured it was sort of vain to worry about it so I left it alone.

As I got older I suddenly could see all the damage that leaving it alone was doing...so I tried a new doctor. To my surprise he prescribed accutane. After jumping through all the hoops to be able to take this medication I started with great fear of what it could do to me...but I was so tired of my skin (and it had taken over my back as well) that I didn't care.

To my VERY pleasant surprise I started to dry up. For a person who could supply a small country with the oil I could make in one day this was life changing. I didn't have to wash my hair everyday. In fact I went a whole week once and only washed it because the thought of that was to gross....even though you sure couldn't tell by looking at it.

After 6 months on accutane I was clear as could be and dry as sand! I was in heaven. I had only had a few aches and pains from taking it and they only lasted through the second month. I was afraid of what would happen as my body got rid of the last trace of accutane but I didn't really notice much difference for about 5 months.

Well I am slowly becoming an oil pit again and my face is not looking good. I have had one enormous zit on my forehead for the last weak. It has a life of its own, really, it even has a really painful pulse and it just wont go away.

I am so close to running back to the doctor and begging for a second round that it isn't even funny. I am going to try to just wait it out until next fall/winter so I don't have to avoid the summer sun but I am not to sure I am going to make it.

I want to be all dried out and zit free!

I can feel SPRING in the air!

It has been warming up in the daytime to above 60°F. I have been able to run out and cut down my perennials to make room for the spring bulbs that are starting to push their way through the earth. I am totally a spring/summer/fall person. I tend to get depressed during the dark days of winter and get to where I don't want to do anything but sit and mope when I have spare time between work. I feel a new burst of energy as the weather warms up.

Life at the Scotts has been super busy. Feels like all I do is run, run, run. The kids are doing wonderful at school. Shane has been doing a bit of hunting with some clients from New York and Pennsylvania. I have been busy running the car wash and working for the state.

Well that is a quick update on us. I will try to keep up a little better than I have. Hope all is well with everyone else. Until next time.